HeartAche!

Some times in our lives we get a reality check that make us realize truly what is important in this life! The precious baby boy of my sweet friend passed away last night, after spending most of the day on a ventilator. His final diagnosis was SIDS.   I so wanted this miracle to occur but it was not meant to be for some reason. But is has helped me realize especially at this time of year that the only thing that matters is your family and friends. WE can survive with financial problems, job loss but to experience the loss of a child is something that no amount of money could ever fix!  I think I checked on Emily 3 times last night to make sure she was breathing and when Josh came in my room at 1:30am I was almost relieved and held him tight. I didn't mind having his knees in my back I welcomed it! I am so thankful for the Lord's plan! I know this family will get to raise their perfect son in a perfect world!  Although I don't understand right now why this had to happen I do believe that my Bishop was inspired to bring us together  before ever knowing that we would have this tragedy in our ward.  We closed the fast and prayed for those who fasted but most importantly for this sweet family in my ward. I am grateful that I attended and could feel the Spirit even though we didn't get what we hoped for. I am so thankful for my two little angels and for JJ! I don't need anything for Christmas I already have everything I want in Josh and Emily! How thankful I am to be their Mother and hold them in my arms!